I have been trying to reach you with no luck. I am posting this so, hopefully, one day you will find it. I don't know if that's possible, but maybe I will get lucky, and someone we know will see it and tell you about it.
The Air Force has really changed the man I once knew, but it was for the good. You have done so much for yourself, I couldn't be more proud of you.
I know that things between us went terribly wrong. I want to fix them. I am not pointing fingers or placing blame on anyone. I just want to fix them. The last night we spent together was something I have needed for so long. I wish it would have never ended. I thought seeing you again would make me nervous, but it felt as good as it always has. It felt like coming home again. It felt natural and calming.
I miss you so much. I know that you are going to Iraq soon, and I am dreading it. I am scared I will never see your sweet face again. I will be praying for your safe return. I feel as if you are so far away, even though Charleston is pretty much right down the road. I want to see you again before you go overseas, so I am praying that you will come here to see me again.
I know we are no longer a couple, but I wish we were. I have always been there for you and nothing will ever change that. I still love you more than anything in this world. I still want to be an "officer's wife" as you so eloquently put it that day. I hope that someday, this will find you. Until then, I will keep trying and hoping for the best.