It Pains Me to Know


Hi, how are you? Things on my end are going--well, let's just say that I am alive. I have never been the type to express exactly how I feel, but there are a few things that I would like to tell you. Every morning I wake up and there is a pain that shoots through my heart. The thought that I have to spend another day without you rips my soul apart.

I know we thought it would be better for us both if we ended it, but the time I have spent away from you has taught me that I am inseparably a part of you, and you are a part of me, and that the best place for both of us is with each other. It pains me to know that you wake up with another woman beside you. It pains me to know that I could have let the best thing that ever happened to me leave without a fight. What hurts the most is the thought that you might not feel the same. I can't see my future any other way, except with you in it. It scares me to think, though, that you can so easily envision your future without me in it.